Life is not a lonely problem + scattered thoughts

Since I let myself explore religion and started reading the Bible, I discovered an infinite source of hope, new perspectives, and much more peace of mind.

I used to find myself disconnected from friends, wondering if I would ever be capable of building long-lasting relationships and, ultimately, a family. Amidst all of this, starting to follow the Bible’s teachings minimized much of my suffering and anxiety.

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I basically identified as a very math/science-oriented person until 2025. It seemed that believing in something that cannot be proven to exist through logic was extremely questionable. But the point is, I tried for 25 years to make every decision as rationally as I could, using my intuition + accumulated experiences, which was very humbling. I found myself feeling alone, with misunderstandings in my relationships, and defeated/depressed not knowing what else I could do since I stopped trusting my own discernment.

One sentence that appeared to me during the beginning of my process of getting in touch with religion was:

"The heart has its reasons of which reason knows nothing." — Blaise Pascal

I couldn't agree more.

As human beings, we cannot live based on rationality all the time. We have feelings.

The beauty of the Bible is that it tells you what to do while taking into account the reasons of the heart, whose complexity is so underrated. The Bible is, simply put, a mix of historical context, philosophy, and plenty of non-obvious recommendations. The combination of these recommendations is so intricate and difficult to conceive that I truly believe Jesus was an enlightened being. Sure, there are historical facts that cannot be exactly replicated nowadays, but if you analyze the realm of what's being taught, you grasp that the human essence and consciousness has remained the same through the years.

I decided to take a chance on October 12th, 2025, to see where religion would lead me.

Everything that has happened since then has made my life much better. I stopped feeling alone. I learned to be more patient when I'm in pain. I learned to pray and ask God for things I wish would happen to the people around me, and to be grateful for the life I have.

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